OK-so I spent 5 months in a facility to help me deal with my mental health and alcohol abuse issues. Both of these are long standing issues with me. I have been trying to deal with this crap off and on since I was about 28 or so. It existed long before then but I just ignored it and drank away my issues in an attempt to off myself through attrition. Dutring my 20s, I was under the assumption that I would be dead before I was 30, either by my own hand, somebody elses hand, or through some horrigic, spectacular incident involving explosions, twisted metal, flames, body parts laying everywhere.
I had discovered punk rock in my late teens, partially through living in England for my first two years in High School. My British friends turned me onto The Stranglers, The Damned, Buzzcocks, etc.
I discovered the very small but intense hardcore punk rock scene in San Antonio, Texas where I spent my last two years of High School and two years of junior college.(talk about culture shock, the school in England was fantastic, teachers were paid by the Department of Defense, wnated to be there and actually tried to im[art some kind of useful wisdom. I read Dante's Inferno in my Sophomore year. The San Antonio school was a massive fucking chasm of a shit hole. More on those formative experiences later)
I dived in with a passion, once using a pell grant to pay to put on a Black Flag show at Villa Fontana, which was built for the 1968 World's Fair in downtown San Antonio. In the mid 80s, it was a broken down vast chamber available for rent to various folks for parties, etc. My fellow punks and I rented it out for the bigger shows, trolling smaller clubs for the shows that did not bring in enough to pay the fees at Villa.
Ok, that was a tiny bit of history, future bloggos will delve more into those rabbit holes later.
Mentally, I was depressed. I generally thought at the time it was just tee/.....ok--iit would appear that I have spilt too much shit on theis keyboard and it is not longer wanting to work properly so I guess its time to get a new one so we will have to continue this particular entry later....god damn technology! fuck you apple keyboard, why cant you take a little bit of coffee and topo chico spilled on you without freaking the fuck out.....ook- ebay here I come...more later..........E